Reconnecting with my abandoned blogspot

Summer is here and this one is different than all others before. Usually summer slowly fades and next thing I know it's time to get ready for Halloween, Thanksgiving, Christmas, then it's a whole other year! We go about our daily lives with the subtle change in seasons. But this year is different. The end of this summer signals an end to one chapter in my life and the beginning of a new one. My big kid is going into kindergarten! I will no longer be a mom with 2 preschoolers, a very loose routine, and a flexible schedule. I will be bound by the school calendar! I now know what my elders were talking about when they congratulated me on the arrival of my first child: "enjoy him while he's little; it goes by so fast!"
As  we approach this special time in our family's life I am doing pretty good at not being sad. I share in my son's excitement and look forward to all of the wonderful times ahead. I remember how much I loved school! I look forward to helping in the classroom, joining the PTA and helping him with homework.
But it did go by fast. And I have little record of it. I saved the calendar of his first year, and we have a few family videos. My old hard drive bit the dust and along with it were a ton of pictures of both boys from their baby days, which of course I--not a perfect mom--neither backed up the files nor ever printed most of them! I tried keeping a calendar for Ty's first year, but I messed up filling in the dates on the first one, bought a second one to replace it and messed IT up too. So I gave up.
Therefore, I have decided to give this blog-thing another try so I can chronicle my journey through motherhood. As I share my struggles, triumphs, discoveries, and vents please try to keep an open and nonjudgmental mind for none of us are perfect, we're just trying to do our best!

GUILT

Oooohhh man, is this not our main nemesis? Sometimes I feel this in multiplicity. Guilt over this, guilt over that. I forgot to give them their vitamins, I yelled when he didn't listen, they ate McD's for lunch (again) today, they watched too much t.v.... the list goes on. Each day there are so many things that we can choose to feel guilty about, but there are also a great many of things which we can feel good about. Maybe today you did your best. You made beds. You caught up on the laundry. You made a dinner to please everyone. Or you just made dinner. Or you just were there. Even for a moment. In ourselves let us not dwell on our shortcomings. Instead, let us dwell on our forthcomings, what we have accomplished today. One day at a time. One moment at a time...